How life moves sideways and why the feminine doesn't always need to be in bloom

From what I have been observing in my own journey so far is that, when I allow myself to surrender and flow with the organic pace and unfolding of my life (rather than trying to force), is that life (when left to it's natural growth) evolves in different periods or cycles, almost like moving sideways (instead of a straight linear path that we have been taught).

By this I mean, as humans we are not bound or meant to be one single thing and our lives are not meant to look or evolve in one specific way, much of life and nature moves in seasons where each seasons holds a certain purpose. Nature is not always in full bloom, it is only in bloom when the season is right, the conditions are right and the preparations leading up to it have been right + where the nurturing is right.

Other seasons like fall holds the intention to shred, to peal off and let go of the old. It is a time where nature moves slower and begins to let go of the old leaves in order to prepare for winter.

I feel that humans are very much a like, some periods of our lives are full of blossom, prosperity and radiance, our true prime time, and other times we are meant to withdraw, perhaps do some distancing and work on things in private.

Some times we are genuinely happy and "in a good place", and other times we are processing and "licking our wounds".

This is how life is suppose to be.

Through my own periods of being more withdrawn, are the times I have perhaps grown and expanded my awareness and connection with self the most, not when I am constantly optimized, amongst other people or being outwardly busy.

Often it has involved me distancing myself from certain people, moving into my own "shell" and giving myself space and time to process whatever I need to process. These are the seasons where I naturally feel a deep need to be with myself and go deeper within (more than usual) and when I surrender to that need, I find relief and a sense of ease, because this is exactly where I needed to be at that time, trusting that it will not be that way forever.

I believe, the more we allow ourselves to align with our own natural cycle, rhythm, pace, unique unfolding and listen to our own bodies instead of following the constructed, unnatural, forced and fast pace that we have been taught, the more connected and content with both ourselves and life we will feel.

During these times in our lives (as I believe we all go through), the need to go within as I see it is greater than usual and the need to do so without being distracted by external noice like the opinions and thoughts of others (which can many times deeply interfere or be confuse with our own thoughts), but to be in complete stillness and feeling safe enough to follow your own voice of wisdom and heart.

These periods are vital and should not be pushed to get through as quickly as possible or forced with a solution, they are meant for us to go deeper and to expand if only we trust to surrender to it.

The better we become aware of this, accept it and embrace it, the healthier and happier I believe we will be. To allow each season to be what it is, to surrender to the different currents of life whatever it might be. We go through things for a reason, and each of our life journeys are unique, each need to unfold naturally with a sense of trust and faith that everything is exactly as it is meant to.

I think it is easy for women to feel like they always need to be "in bloom", that they always need to be put together, put on a smile (even when they don't truly feel like it), always show up, perform, achieve, be available and successful, when reality is that we have so many more layers to ourselves, we are far more complex than that "straight forward masculine and constructed path of life" and our internal world is far more intangible - life is far more intangible!

When the feminine is deeply anchored in her inherent value and connected with self, she feels safe to leave things undone, she feels safe to not have all the answers, figure things out or constantly be available to others and she feels safe to surrender into trusting each season for what it holds.

She feels safe to rest, withdraw and recharge during the times her body and soul calls for it instead of keep pushing herself.

To constantly optimize ourselves in the masculine influenced ways we have been taught usually doesn't support or honor our internal world and core needs as women. We are not meant to always be available or show up, and we are not meant to always radiate even if it's our natural and inherent state. Each period and season of our lives holds it's own purpose, one that has the intention for us to grow and evolve which can only be fulfilled once we surrender to it.

To hold resistance to it is to hold resistance towards growths.

And whatever the universe and higher guidance has intended for us to learn during these times and seasons of going more within, will become clear once we are ready to receive the message.

Love, Stina